Replaced.

Last Take

as I stumble with these words
you know I won't fumble because
this is you and me
you meant the world to me
you're the words to my poetry
thin like the wind but oh so deep
you don't even have to say a word
cause you naturally flow with me
with love comes pain and grief
you're a vegetarian and I am beef
stole my heart, a silent thief
i'm a tree without no leaves
you're a miracle that I believed
so now I leave
whether or not we speak
i'm glad of what we had
you meant a lot to me
but it seems you won't allow any air to breathe
an internal bleed, hope you're happy
cause you succeed
i'm done, peace

Growth.

where does love lie
how love lies
watch how this verse cries
my ears become my eyes
what-the-fuck have i lost my mind
im deaf therefore im blind
uncensored, i'm coming raw
i never had her love at all
but i, always caught her fall
i'm different, i'm mean, i am a dog
goodbye nice guy, clear up the fog
watch me bark
this isn't noah's ark
no room for two
this isn't me and you
this is clarity from the news
this is hype, like a pair of shoes
this is life, what does one do
this is mystery without any clues
this is lost, but i refuse to lose
this is truth, sorry if i'm being rude
unfinished
incomplete
a song without a beat
this is me
in this current state of time
this is not me being emo
this is me, on my toes
this is experience and knowledge as i grow
this is dark but still it glows
this is the forever smile i share underneath my nose
this is the smile i receive from you from a single rose
this is the climb without a rope,
impossible.
but possible
but a bit too late
i'm done with this take
moving on to the next scene
to a future ahead of me
goodbye young lady
20.

Outlet.

Fall-ing -

its been almost 3 weeks
since we speaked
im lost, im weak
i dont understand, im defeat
you're my boat, i am sinked
i can't breathe its hard for me to think

tell me why im falling
explain to me, my darling
of what i did wrong,
you, done? is far from my equation.

sorry if i'm not mr. right
sorry if i'm not the shining knight
but for you i will fight
away all your pain and problems
i promise, everything, all of them...

finally explain to tell me why,
every silver civic reminds me of you
the pain i'm going through.
am i in love with you?
why cant i forget you?
why, everything, everywhere reminds me of you...

youre days off,
are my days off,
now im just off
and its so tough

i miss your smile,
i miss your laughter,
i'm in denial
you'll be forever the one im after...

and i...
i miss the way you said my name,
i miss being youre umbrella when it rain.
now all i am to you is pain
sorry again, sorry again...

but i cant hide it inside
i miss those nights
from Vegas to just staring at the stars at night,
i know you probably hate me for life
and you're never wrong and you have every right

Her.

Her eyes are dry
but i see her cry,
deep inside.
she's lonely like night,
she's lonely i'm right.
But she stands tall
yet she stumbles and falls,
refuses help, she's raw
yet delicate and soft.
I offer her a shoulder
she pushes me, move over.
I don't like you, i told her.
feelings change-
But she knows my feelings are the same.
Open arms
I promise to protect her from
any bullshit and any harm
she's aware, she's alarm
yet she's still torn.
Blame it on her ex,
it sucks for the next.
Blame it on her past,
how long will her pain last.

Happy New Years haha it's been awhile.

This one is for you.

Unclear.

incomplete or can't complete
or always staring at defeat
no reason to cry
i am happy for her
and happy for that guy
never really matched
like a suit with a hat
believed that opposites attracted
but reality is, it don't
and that's a fact
though i thought our stars a lined
i ended up, the hole in our raft
its nighttime but i hear the birds chat
how so lovely that we couldn't match
love birds?
how love hurts.
your memories latch on
forever through dawn
why cant u be gone
from my
heart
my soul
my ecstasy
far fetched
but so complex
wasn't my ex
gave her my heart
then she left
my heart is my ear
now i am deaf
my depth is my breath
lungs filled with cigarettes
all out of air so i step
what is rep without repetition
what is love without you in my vision
unclear.

It's funny how things work and how unlucky i am to catch things at times i'm not suppose to or faith doesn't like me or simply just likes fucking with me.

Questions.

fact and fictions
what am i predicting
whats my prediction
quick to rhyme
but what am i fixing
pots and pans in the kitchen
but the food is missing
the letter is written
but i dont have a clue to
what i'm submitting
i count my blessings
but what am i blessed in
where is my essence
future or past tense
sailor hat on
does that make me the captain?

Back to the old Nhan. Inspired for a quick second then loses it. Incomplete or can't complete.

Catching Feelings.

black dress
black heels
for real,
she killed.
long legs,
enough said.
i give her thoughts,
i give her head.
we break bread,
her legs spread.
i acknowledge,
thought before process.
we connect,
then came knowledge.
deal with the facts,
compare and contrast.
is it love,
will it last?