Unclear.

incomplete or can't complete
or always staring at defeat
no reason to cry
i am happy for her
and happy for that guy
never really matched
like a suit with a hat
believed that opposites attracted
but reality is, it don't
and that's a fact
though i thought our stars a lined
i ended up, the hole in our raft
its nighttime but i hear the birds chat
how so lovely that we couldn't match
love birds?
how love hurts.
your memories latch on
forever through dawn
why cant u be gone
from my
heart
my soul
my ecstasy
far fetched
but so complex
wasn't my ex
gave her my heart
then she left
my heart is my ear
now i am deaf
my depth is my breath
lungs filled with cigarettes
all out of air so i step
what is rep without repetition
what is love without you in my vision
unclear.

It's funny how things work and how unlucky i am to catch things at times i'm not suppose to or faith doesn't like me or simply just likes fucking with me.

Questions.

fact and fictions
what am i predicting
whats my prediction
quick to rhyme
but what am i fixing
pots and pans in the kitchen
but the food is missing
the letter is written
but i dont have a clue to
what i'm submitting
i count my blessings
but what am i blessed in
where is my essence
future or past tense
sailor hat on
does that make me the captain?

Back to the old Nhan. Inspired for a quick second then loses it. Incomplete or can't complete.

Catching Feelings.

black dress
black heels
for real,
she killed.
long legs,
enough said.
i give her thoughts,
i give her head.
we break bread,
her legs spread.
i acknowledge,
thought before process.
we connect,
then came knowledge.
deal with the facts,
compare and contrast.
is it love,
will it last?

My AutoB.

my ambitions
are false dreams
blame it on Mary
blame it on Ms. Jane
blame it on Lazy
but all fingers point to his name
his name is my name
mr. procastination
or mr. scared of change
he knows what is right
but still shifts to the left lane
no sense of direction
tired of hearing complaints
other's opinons turn to pain
why, good-bye sunny days
forecast is cloudy and nothing but rain
he wants to be like fort minor
but he's not hungry for recognition
he just wants u to remember his name
is it a shame
or is he ashamed
father left him around the age of sixteen
from son and big brother comes a new title, man of the house
or more like a young man with a lot of doubts
the drought.
is
over.
watch him turn green
like march on st patricks day.
-- motivation is on its way.

i like this. this is a new good habit and a nice place to save my writings. Thanksgiving was fun, ate a lot and now my stomach is mad at me x_x. Hope everyone had a great and safe Thanksgiving.

An old piece.

Hello. You may know me as the shy guy that forgets everything, up all night, tired all the time, no sense of direction, can't drink for his life, Mr. "Nice Guy," etc. etc. etc. Now, let me re-introduce myself, the other side of me, that some of you may already know and for those that don't know... One that writes and records songs that never get done. BA-DA-BING BA-DA-BOOM! It's almost a new year and i am determine to change so here's a try... This blog site will mostly consist of my writings and music. Love it, hate it, debate it...

05.08.05
Essence
i cant paint a perfect picture or draw a straight line
but with these words, i feel inline
with the world and not declined
cause i have something that is mine
these rhymes keep me together
and moving like the human's spine
without it im senseless
like a person without time my world was once dots scatter
nothing really matter
till maybe the day after
i met you
we knew each other, we were coo
we got closer, and now i cant see life without you
but what is a dude to do
when he can't have a perfect girl like you
[incomplete]

i almost forgot,
Happy Thanksgiving!